Still pigeon holed after all these years

well, just got some great news today that the bank of insert dodgy country name here want to interview me for a long term temporary (previously thought of as a paradox but I became that in my last dodgy bank) loans administrator role. Still pigeon holed to the max after all these years.

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Travelled over an hour each way for a 7 minute interview. The guy was sound but the two women were old fat and ugly, and looked terribly unhappy. They didnt probe me and just talked about how snowed under they are and the work just keeps coming and coming. really made it sound like a great place to work altogether, that would really be a dream come through for me. But alas I am completely broke and if offered I would have to take it for a bit, starts next week. I'm going through the toughest of times since I've been to london, all my money is tied up in extra work. But I'm still waiting to hear back from the dream tailoring job and in the mean time and during the internship part I could do extra work. But they take months to pay so I'd be tight for cash at times. Watched the office last night and tim was telling dawn its better to be at the bottom of a ladder that you want to climb that half way up one you dont. dont want to get stuck in a bank and lose tailoring, times are tough indeed.


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in a funny turn of events I got a call from another agency today talking about a loans admin job that sounded very familiar, and I started to get my hopes up but turns out its for the same bank again. They must have some flag that pops up saying I worked for a dodgy bank before, unbelievable.

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A few years ago while I was in the bank I used to get pissed that my agency would never put me forward for any decent jobs, and every time I got a call about a new job it was always the same shit role for another dodgy bank. One of the lads thought it very funny and made a video about my life at that time. It still rings true today.


http://youtu.be/Lhnga2pI7AE

A week in the summer of let downs

Tuesday

 

Awake at 9.30, its bucketing down, fuck that, go back to sleep. Get up after 11. Sleep routine is so messed up right now its killing me. Milk tastes just edging on sour, almost ruins my weetabix. There’s the tiniest bit left after me. I pack my good trousers and two books and head out. Yesterday I went running in my barefoot runners up hills without having broken them in properly and by the end my calves were in a lot of pain. By the morning they were as tight as a motherfucker. I’ve been renewing this book for months cause I don’t live near a library anymore that’s in the London network of libraries. Today was the day I was finally bringing it back. I was getting off at Shadwell but googled Shadwell library and saw it was closer to limehouse so jumped back on the train one stop back and walked from there. My legs will thank me. Turned out it wasn’t the proper library and I had to go back to one two minutes from Shadwell station. An extra half hour walk with tight calves and the rain pouring down was not what I wanted. I brought back the book and printed off a few copies of my new 1 page CV. It’s cut down for tailoring work so I got rid of all my education bar my new diploma, and cut out all my banking experience and put in my few days tailoring work experience. Have to say it looks pretty shit. Went up to a tailors in East London, couldn’t find it, walked around the block, found another then found the first one and handed a CV into both and waddled out. Original one seemed cool, other one seemed shit and not really bespoke.

 

Walked up to Hackney to go get some fabric. Almost as soon as I got there a big argument broke out between the manager and two African ladies. This guy takes no shit from no one and doesn’t really give a crap about customer service in the slightest. They were buying some cloth that a staff member said was £2 a meter.

The manager said he was mistaken its actually £3 a meter.

But he said it was £2.

He was wrong, its £3. Cue massive argument for about 10 minutes. I managed to get about a quarter of it on video (which I cant find now) but it was really dying down by that stage which will tell you how bad it had been. Pisspot came over and looked at cloth but couldn’t pick anything. Says he might be moving out soon cause he’s jobless too. Move in with me, I need someone in a month or so.

 

Got some fabric then jumped on a bus to Oxford Circus. Some guy across from me offered me a banana. I was OK but he says go on take it I just got too many. It was green so I wasn’t pushed but I took it anyway to please him. He spent most of the rest of the journey talking to himself so I figured maybe I’d throw it in the next bin. Got to town but tailor shop owner had left work early, talked to new guy for a bit, sound chap.

---What are you doing in town?

---Ah just meeting someone, might be going to the opera or something I don’t know.

---Just get drunk.

---Good idea. Says for me to ring shop owner, I do but no answer.

 

Then I get a text from the new extras agency I signed up for. They want to put me forward for a stand in for an actual actor. Holy shit. Ha, maybe I do look a bit like him. It’s on Friday but I’m away for the weekend working at a festival. Shit I still need to fork out for a tent. I still haven’t heard when the bus is going, maybe its not going til Friday and I could make the casting, or I could head down late. But if I get there late they’ll probably cut me and I won’t make any money this weekend.

 

Head over to Covent Garden, she’s in the return queue for day 2 tickets for Swan Lake. She’s about 5^th out of 10 people. I wonder can I mooch in but decide not to. Maybe she can buy two tickets anyway. I check my mail and see the bus is going down Thursday evening, balls. Fuck it I’ll text back and say I’ll go for the casting. Maybe it will all work out. She’s starving so I give her the banana and head to the back of the queue. A while later she comes down and we say we might leave then she heads back to her spot, calls me, I pick up my bag, she says no leave your stuff, I walk over and some old bollox half way between me and her in the queue starts screaming at her about trying to get me to skip in.

I was like ---my stuff is back there, we’re just talking,

---Yeah you are now that I caught you.

-If I wanted to skip in I would have done it earlier when you weren’t watching when I was standing talking to her.

---No cause I was watching you then too.

If you were a hundred years younger I’d….

 

Then he went on and on shouting and waving his newspaper about. She got upset but tells me that the woman beside her in the queue will sell her an £8 ticket when she gets a better one for herself. Then she’ll give that to me and get a semi decent one for herself. We went back to our spots but after a few minutes I decided I couldn’t put up with that old fucker, it must be something after seeing that argument earlier that you can’t just have people shouting at you for nothing. Well I gave him a piece of my mind and told him he should apologize but I guess I wasn’t too convincing and he didn’t back down or admit he was wrong. You get some right twats at events like this. He kept looking down at my shoes like he was going to say something but I suppose I did feel like a bit of a hobo around the people in there.

 

Well the £8 ticket was £8 for a reason. If I really leaned forward and craned my neck I had a view of one quarter of the stage although at the time I thought it was half. People would be clapping and bravo-ing at dances that I wouldn’t even know had happened. Doesn’t matter anyway I just spent the whole time replaying the arguments with that old jerk over and over in my head. Then it ends and people start bowing. Is that it? Hope so, its fucking shit from up here. Go out and turns out it’s only half time but she has a great seat for me for the second half. Its two rows in front of her and she’s dead centre but miles up the back. Complete view of the stage though. Fuck I don’t know, what if that guy comes in and I’m sitting in his seat, that would not go down well with this crowd if I had to move from the middle of a row in the middle of some stupid dance. She also says that the girl beside her is getting her seat invaded by the ass of a large lady beside her and she’s moaning about her the whole time and even took a picture of the ass to show the ticket guys and try get a partial refund. The absolute wankers that go to this sort of thing.

 

We go back in and I chance taking the seat. But it’s a long 5 minutes and I am shitting it, completely land locked right dead centre in the middle of the whole section. If I have to get up now with my school bag and my bottle of water and my shit jacket and squeeze my way out I will fucking die. The old guy will probably see me, stand up and say I knew he was skipping in, get him fella’s, and all these posh twats will turn their noses up at me or bite their thumbs at me or something. But they close the door and I’m safe. The shows good but I don’t have a clue what is happening. We head for pizza after and then she gets the tube while I opt for the bus. At least I won’t have to walk up that hill.

 

Wednesday

 

Battery on phone died, had meant to get up at 9.30 but ended up getting up at 12 again for the how manyth time in a row. Not good. Check phone, no text from anyone. What the craic am I going to do today then? Might as well just try finish my book before I head off for the weekend. No milk, can’t even get breakfast.

 

I turn on her laptop and my hotspot, need to sort out the electricity bill before we get our electricity cut off. I tried to set up an account but it just wouldn’t work so I’ve been mailing some guy in India for the last week or so. Last time he mailed he says the screen shot I sent him wasn’t a jpeg so send it again. I check and it is a jpeg. I mail him saying it is and paste it into the mail too, cant do anything else for you. Check my account balance, still nothing from the job centre from 5 months ago and I’m down to £120. Rent is up in 8 days, need £260, will be getting about £130 tomorrow and then nothing for another 2 weeks. If I don’t spend a penny in the next week I might be able to scrape it together with a bit from my Irish account. I check say no to 0870 for the job centre phone number and ring a few but none of them are the one I want.

 

She checks the fridge and sees the milk situation, I ask her can she get some cause my legs are fucked plus I’m only here for 2 more breakfasts. She comes back with some great unbelievable news. Down in co-op they are selling 36 packs of weetabix for £1.50 or something. It’s a 24 pack with 50% free (a 36) and its half price she says but for some reason she only got one pack. A 24 pack for £2 was the benchmark but now its rare you get it for anything less than £2.14 so if you see it for £2 you buy it. If you see a 36 pack for less than £3 or a 48 pack for less than £4 then you stock up.

 

I thought I had one last pair of boxers but I’m all out so its commando for today, doesn’t matter anyway cause I wont be going anywhere except down to co-op and I suppose to tesco to buy a tent before I leave it too late. After my most recent move I threw out all my tighty boxers and now I’ve no emergency pairs. I’m literally down to 8 pairs including one that just the other week I ripped right down the front. Before we head out I go downstairs to put on a wash. On the way back just before I get to the lift I get a call. Its some guy who I cant really understand so I assume its one of them numbers I called on say no to 0870 so I say did you get a missed call off me and he says no I’m calling about the tailoring job and I’m thinking could it be one of the guys from yesterday already then he says from ­­­______street, new guy told me about you. Holy shit it’s him, this is the one I’ve been waiting for.

---Do you want to come in for a trial then we’ll see what you can do and decide to take you on.

---Yes.

---Can you do this Friday?

---No I can do tomorrow before 3 then I have to go away to work for the weekend.

---Ok I’ll ring you Monday and we’ll see.

 

Walk in the door, it’s a miracle. Mood is instantly through the roof.

---This tailor I called into like 2 months ago just rang me. What if I was in the lift? What if I didn’t bring my phone down and ignored the missed call? I cant believe it.

---Oh don’t think too much about this as the only one.

---You mean put all my eggs in one basket? I always put all my eggs in the one basket.

---Ha in Germany we say somethin’ like put all your bets on…somethin’.

 

I put on swan lake on my ipod, the thoughts in my head start racing. Fuck I need somewhere to practice. I get out my tailoring folder, look at a double jetted pocket, point at it, I need to learn this one again, where I am going to practice before Monday? I call a friend but there’s some weird noise, she works in the basement so that must be it. She said I could come in and work there any time though. If I could get to hers and just practice that a few times I’ll be sweet. Fuck why did I say I’d do that casting, its just going to be way more pressure than I need. I ring tailor friend, does he have a machine at home to practice? No answer. We go to head out, ---why am I going out, I should be staying here in case I get through to someone so I can head there rather than going down and having to come back up to get stuff.

---Take your sewing stuff with you.

I shove a load of random bits of fabric in my bag and walk out the door. I get a call from tailor friend on the stairs. Going downstairs is the worst on my calves, I’m like a cow or a calf, its ridiculous. ---Hows it going? I’m alright how are you? We get cut off.

 

We stop into co-op and see the weetabix was too good to be true. Its £2.50, she was looking at the label from the cornflakes on the shelf above. Never mind though that’s still a good price for a 36 pack and there’s plenty there, will stock up on the way home. We pass the fridge store but I’ll get to him on the way back. Get to the dole office, ring the benefits centre again for the 10^th time in the last few months. Tell them the same old spiel, he says they will ring me today or tomorrow, just like the woman said last week. I head out, not as pissed off as I usually am. Go into tesco, there’s a tesco tent for £11 or a branded one for £25. Tempted to go for the tesco one to save on cash but it doesn’t have any waterproof rating so I go for the other one and head back home. Maybe I’ll go to other friend’s house tonight and see if she’ll let me use her sewing machine again even though I broke the pedal the last time (not my fault.) I could cycle there, might not be so bad on my legs.

 

How many boxes of weetabix will I get? 4? 5? If I wasn’t so broke I would be stocking up but then again I still have a full 48 pack from the last time I stocked up in tesco. I’ll just get 2 boxes to be on the safe side in case I have to move out before they’re eaten. Just before I get to co-op the fridge store is in my sights. We bought a shitty little one there for £45 but the freezer part doesn’t work well enough so I’ve been into him a few times. The first time he started to say “well in this weather…” before I stopped him right there. You can’t blame the heat for a fridge not working you absolute chancer. He said come back in a day or two cause he’s no one with him today. I called the next day and his buddy answers. I tell him the story but we get cut off so I text him the address. Cleary I get ignored cause no fridge arrives. A few days later I call in again and he jumps when he sees me. Then he says ---he has one right there for me out the back, the woman should be in to clean it tomorrow then he can drop it up to me.

---Are you sure you don’t want my phone number this time?

---Nah I have a key, I’ll just leave it outside your door if you’re not there.

 

I stayed in all day and no fridge arrived. Why the fuck does he have a key to the building? Obviously he cut a deal and took all the fridges before we moved in and now he’s selling them on to us, what a rip. So today I’m walking up the street and he steps off the back of a van, sees me, looks alarmed, points at me and remembers. Then he says I’ll drop it right up and I’ll give you this one here, its usually £75 but because we messed you around you can have it. You’ll have to clean it yourself though cause the woman still hasn’t come in. I get my weetabix and head home. Its half 5 and still no sign so I give him a call. Doesn’t answer. I get a text from the casting agency, I wasn’t selected for it, grand so. He calls and is just outside. Bring in the new fridge, move the old one to the side to keep our stuff fresh til the gases settle but the new one is taller and is getting obstructed by a cupboard on the right hand side. Guy says just knock a piece of wood on the floor out of the way and it will fit right in and leaves quickly. I say does he want the old one, nah just give it to one of your mates. I go back in and it is not fitting, everything will be on a slight slope or rolling and it’s going to look ridiculous. Big freezer though, high time I got back to the fish market. When I get around to plugging it in it turns out the freezer door doesn’t close properly.

 

Thursday

 

I read the time wrong and miss the bus down to the festival so have to fork out for my own. On the way I read all about the East London tailors and it looks fucking deadly. All my eggs are now in its basket. I get an email - lets meet on Wednesday for a chat. Lets.

 

The problem with working festivals is for 3 days work you have to commit 5 days and you’re not exactly guaranteed a full days work. I ended up working 3 festivals in August which is half the month gone for feck all money really. Another problem is it’s a bit first day of school vibe trying to make new friends which I’m not that great at if my memory serves me correctly. This problem is compounded by the fact that everyone there is 7-10 years younger than me and there to get totally smashed whereas I’m there because I’m totally smashed.

 

The first evening they were handing out microwave meals from a little portacabin. I was in line for a soup kitchen basically. There were 2 microwaves and about 30 people which wouldn’t have been too bad but for the fact the meals were frozen so took about 10 minutes to heat up. Luckily I was at the front of the queue so wasn’t waiting too long. After I left it started raining so people were in the queue for up to an hour in the rain for a luke warm gloopy Asda microwave meal and the news that that is the best they were to expect for the rest of the weekend.

 

I got landed in a half nerdy half sound group at first. The voice of the group was an 18 year old girl who just loved working and talking about working, so sad to see in someone so young. Everyone except me started drinking cause I was late and missed the walk down to Asda. We joined up with a bigger group of people but when I went to sit down I couldn’t really get in the circle. They were the Earth and I was the moon. I mooched around a bit but still couldn’t squeeze in so went around to the far side and sat between a couple of people I hadn’t met yet. I’m not all that great on sober first impressions so after a few minutes I got up and headed for Asda. If I was going to survive this weekend I was going to have to get drunk. New problem: all the money you make on festival weekends is spent on real food so you don’t get scurvy and cans so people seem more interesting.

 

It was a good 40 minute walk to Asda. On the way I passed a guy who was absolutely wasted carrying two bags of booze that were ready to burst. He managed to point me in the right direction though. Somehow they served him as much as he could carry even though he could barely carry himself, yet they wouldn’t serve me cause I had no I.D. What an absolute disaster. I wandered home slowly, made a couple of phone calls and went back to my tent for the earliest night I’ve had in my life.

 

Friday

 

Next day I got on well with a sounder group of lads. It was an electronic festival which they were all into, so they went in and got properly fucked and had plenty of stories to tell. Turned out to be a cracker of a weekend which was great for everyone except one of the lads on the 8pm to 8am shift who had to sit in his tent baking for most of the day while everyone else was working. He managed to have a few scoops behind the bar and asked to get off early and they went out on the mega sesh. My bar wasn’t that much craic. Down one end there was 4 giggling girls, 3 of them had braces, but they weren’t the early 20’s life decision braces, they were still the early teens mammy made me get them braces. God I’m old. The trick is to do as little work as possible. Each day I would try to go longer than the day before without serving a customer. I got up to 6 hours. Annoying workaholic girl kept telling me what to do, I did my best to ignore her. Worked till 3 or 4am and was fresh enough in the morning.

 

Saturday/Sunday

 

I was reading my Tour de France book when one of the lads came in dying that afternoon.

---Are you still reading that Tour de France book?

I’d only known the guy a day, either he’s a really fast reader or still reads books with pictures in them. Then I noticed I was the only person reading all weekend. If they found out my age and that I went for a run that morning I’d be treated like a leper. He did have some great stories though about a guy on his bar who was doing even less work than me. On that bar there was a line of people serving customers and then a line of people on tills. He stood alongside a till, neither serving customers nor operating the till. As it got real late they closed sections of the bar by pulling curtains from both sides. He used to stand behind the curtain looking directly at it, legend.

 

Saturday night the 8 till 8 guy was dying so bad that he had to leave work after 2 hours. Sunday it was the last night so he only got a few hours, still he considers it a result of a weekend. On Sunday our lunch was left on a crate out in the sun all day. I opted for a cheese sandwich to be on the safe side. Afterwards I noticed it was out of date, what if I’d had tuna? Gone off sambo’s in the sun, this really is the worst company in the world.

 

Monday/Tuesday

 

No call back Monday. Tuesday I’m in town and meet up with tailor friend, haven’t seen him in ages. I show him my trousers and get some inside info about the meeting I have with the East London tailors. On the way to the train home we pass by ______ street so I knock into the one I’ve been waiting for to ask him can I come in for a trial tomorrow.

He says ---ok come in.

I say ---what time?

He says ---anytime.

I say are ---you sure?

He says ---anytime. Its 6pm so by that logic 6pm tomorrow would be an ok time to come in.

 

We get to Charing Cross and the trains are all fucked so we go for a drink. With what money? After a few drinks a few more and a dinner waiting on the table in his house sounds like a good idea to me. After dinner it’s a bit late for me to head home so I decide to stay over. Then the cornetto’s come out, what a great day. Unfortunately I drop some chocolate on my only shirt but don’t realize till much later. Not to worry he has a very similar shirt he can give me to wear for tomorrow.

 

I go into the East London tailors first thing. At first its just a chat. I kind of would have preferred an interview but I’m not in the right industry for that kind of thing anymore so I’m not really sure what to make of it. It goes well though. Then the current in-house trouser maker comes down for more chat. She’s really nice and really likes my trousers but I’m probably not chatty enough and don’t really elaborate on my answers enough.

She says, ---I just want to make sure is tailoring definitely what you want to do?

---Yes I definitely do

---But we want to make sure the person we pick is passionate about tailoring, are you passionate about tailoring?

---Yes I’m passionate about tailoring.

 

I go home and get changed and head to West London for 2pm thinking after lunch is a nice time. He kicks up a fuss.

---Why are you here so late?

---You said anytime.

---No we start here very early in the morning, it is too late.

---But you said anytime.

 

If that was finance you’d walk away but its tailoring where there is little to no unpaid jobs available so you take it. The first thing he asked me to do I didn’t do so well. The second thing I did do well. He’ll call me he says.